Before I got into the nest, I was afraid that I wasn’t going to fit into it. I am just too big. I had an insecurity about belonging.
Growing up I always felt like the outsider, like I didn’t fit in. I was too tall, shy, and not smart. As an adult I still struggle with this insecurity, but remind myself that until I accept myself I will always be searching for approval from others.
In 2010 I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism then re-diagnosed 2 years later with Hashimoto’s Disease, a lifelong and progressive autoimmune disease. Over time, the side effects of weight gain, hair loss, chronic fatigue, low sex drive and brain fog eroded my confidence, my self-esteem, my sense of self-worth, my relationships with my husband, family and friends, my career and my aspirations. I just wanted my life back.
My life has changed through the things I’ve learned about gut health and the relationship to the thyroid. I have eliminated gluten from my diet but I still battle with eliminating inflammatory foods and alcohol that bring me comfort but in the end, cause discomfort.
The journey for me and my life is to move away from the things that bring me comfort. If I don’t change my relationship with comfort then I will stay physically and mentally unwell.
The nest was a sense of acceptance and belonging. And, telling myself,“when I step out of my comfort zone, truly amazing things happen”.